Ah…foster care. It’s hard. And it’s about to get even harder for us as we’ve learned we will be saying goodbye to our sweet D some time this week.
I have been mulling over a blog post on this…I have prayed for the words to say…because right now, I feel quite numb. It’s still surreal…he’s still with us. He’s on the couch right now getting a bottle from his “daddy” and in his adorably cute glow-in-the-dark dinosaur pj’s. Life is normal…the same that it’s been since we picked him up from the hospital on my birthday at 2 days old – now almost 4 months ago.
It’s funny how we can let ourselves run wild with a “story.” If I were the author of this story…it would’ve had a completely different ending…because the beginning was such a sweet start…I mean, after all, what better present can one receive than picking up a perfectly pink, blue-eyed baby boy from the hospital on their birthday?
But that’s a fantasy world…and foster care certainly doesn’t operate there.
It operates in hard.
But…if there’s one thing I know about us…one thing that is certain about JJ and I…and Avery…we can do hard things.
And while we will grieve and mourn the emptiness that D leaves behind…he truly deserves every tear that drops for him.
D has given us far more than we have given him. His sweet smile and pleasant demeanor was a joy to have in our family. He gave me back the newborn weeks that I missed with Avery while I was sick in the hospital. He gave us endless snuggles, countless smiles, and an infinite amount of reasons to be thankful to have met him if only for the first 4 months of his life.
We will cherish our memories with him forever, his name will flood our prayers always, and he will have a piece of our hearts, whether he knows it or not, with him wherever he goes.
And as we closed out our final weekend together as a family of 4, God sent us this beautiful rainbow over our house. He is so good and amazing. He will not leave or forsake us…and I took this as His reminder of that to us.
His will, His way…