My husband and I have started to sort of “label” our years together so far, like anyone does really. You remember years by what happened during those 12 months. You remember if a year was good or bad, joyful or sad…uneventful or crazy busy. JJ and I have packed quite a bit into our 3 ½ years of marriage…and it’s obvious that 2012 was a tough year. While it was filled with much JOY at the start of the year (the marriage of my sister, Dana, and brother-in-law Cody and the birth of Avery), the rest of the year was just kind of “ehh.”
After the most devastating event of 2012 (my illness/surgery), I was unhappy in my job, suffering from PTSD, seeing a counselor every other week and walking a long road of emotional healing. Needless to say, we were very happy to see that ball drop, get a “FRESH START” and to celebrate 2013 as a HEALTHY family!
2013 was one of those years that went pretty smooth and as planned. I went back to my old job, working with people whom I love. I was at a great place emotionally with my healing and acceptance of our “new life” and we had 3 beautiful embryos waiting to be brought into this world once we were ready. We ended 2013 with hope and excitement for what was to come.
If you have been following my blog and our journey, you know that 2014 was a rough year. It was a year full of tough decisions…trials…heartache…loss… It was very hard, very trying. Our faith was tested and tried again and again. Satan stirred our pot almost all year long – in ways that extend far beyond our failed transfers. He picked at us and picked at us, just waiting and hoping for us to turn our backs on our Savior. I’m not going to go into all of the negatives about our year…I am not going to give the devil one more second of my time.
His interference only fuels my fire for Christ. Trials and failures only turn me to my King more, make rely on Him more, need Him more, and live in dependence on Him more.
Our 2014 was filled with much sadness, yes…but it was also filled with answers, self-discovery, direction, and love. JJ and I sort of wished away the end of 2014…we couldn’t wait for another FRESH START. But what I’ve discovered is that a new year doesn’t bring a fresh start. It’s just another day. Everything follows you into that next day. Issues don’t end. Problems don’t fade away.
As JJ and I sat, just the two of us (Avery already asleep upstairs) in quiet, Northern Michigan…helping each other fight to stay awake for the ball to drop at midnight on New Years Eve…I realized that each day…each and every day…we get a chance for a fresh start in Christ. If we are living in dependence on Him…relying completely and totally on Him…each day, each moment really, He allows us to reset. He is our constant companion; all we must do is give it to Him. An overwhelming moment, day, week, month, year…
Give. It. To. Him.
All of your worries. All of your heartache. All of your sadness, your frustrations, your confusion, your loss…give it to God.
Hand it over.
His presence will refresh you, His peace will overwhelm you.
A recent “Jesus Calling” put it this way…
“Do not be weighed down with problems and unresolved issues, for I am your burden-bearer.”
Psalm 34:17-18 reads, “The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
He will take away the pain and sadness and restore it with hope and healing, all you must do is trust in Him.
If you had a tough 2014 or are unhappy with your current circumstances, perhaps struggling in an area of your life…don’t look forward to 2015 as a fresh start. A new day will not solve your money problems, a new day will not fix your marriage, or mend your relationship with a family member, a new day will not heal the brokenhearted,
Jesus will, though.
He has, He does, and He will. He wants to.
Look to Him for a fresh start, a reset in any moment you may need it…and His guidance, grace, and mercy will deliver you from your troubles.
Here’s to a wonderful 2015, growing closer to and becoming more like Christ!
His will, His way,