Our trials have a purpose…that’s right! We all MUST believe that our trials have a greater purpose. If you don’t…how can you have hope for a better tomorrow? Actually in the book of James, we’re told to consider it “pure joy” when we are faced with a trial! Can you believe that? “Pure joy”? That’s difficult to do, but check out this verse:
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” (James 1:2-4)
So, we are to consider it pure joy, for the testing of our faith will produce perseverance and perseverance will make us mature and complete. Now, reading that whole verse, it all comes together for me. With My Story, I can honestly say there was NOTHING about it at first that I considered to be “pure joy” – NOTHING!! I was miserable. I was angry, heart-broken, guilty, jealous…a lot of things, but definitely not joyful. But now, almost two years later (Sunday will mark two years since I was admitted to the hospital), I can truly say there are parts of me that consider my journey to be “pure joy” and here are a few reasons why:
- I have been able to share the story of God’s grace and love and how he has completely changed my life through this journey and hopefully have reached some people who needed reached through that! And there is nothing greater than sharing God’s love and bringing people to know His son and our Savior, Jesus Christ!
- I have grown closer to Christ through this myself. He has used this to put me on my knees and give it all to Him. I can’t do this by myself, my husband and I can’t do this just the two of us, we NEED Him!! And He has proven time and time again that He hears our prayers and He’s “got this”!
- We have been given a chance at another biological child(ren) through God’s grace and will (along with modern medicine, of course) in the MOST AMAZING way – through a gestational surrogate. I mean, seriously, what greater gift could someone possibly offer you (besides Jesus’s gift of eternal life in Heaven) than to carry your child for you. I am truly humbled by the women out there who do this for others. Yes, of course, some do it as a “job”…but there are some who do it because they truly want to help provide a family with that hope for a child or another child. How awesome is that? I never put much thought into surrogacy in the past, honestly, because I never had to. Which is probably pretty normal for most that have never had to. But these women go through more injections, hormones, pills, etc. to carry YOUR child for you, than you would have to go through with a process like IVF.
I do want to keep everyone who has been following our journey up-to-speed on what is happening next, but all I am going to say for now is that we are very hopeful and are continuing to trust in God’s plan. He has never failed us and has answered each BIG prayer we have brought to Him so far. Two years ago, I would have never imagined we would be where we are today, but almost two years after my heart-wrenching hysterectomy, I am feeling renewed, joyful, happy, saved, mature, HOPEFUL!! Of course, I am human, so there are days that it still brings me deep sadness and the bad memories of the endless days in the hospital can be overwhelming. But the moments of sadness and the bad memories occur less often as time goes on, and I’m thankful for that. This trial has produced perseverance in us and now we will let it finish its work!
Thank you, thank you to those who have been praying for us. We will never be able to thank you enough!! Please continue to pray for our journey and we will get everyone up-to-date when the time comes! 🙂